Another, randon quick post.

You know something I love, especially in girls. I love it when someone knows they have something special- or do somethign special- a talent, a gift, anything that would be admirable to others, and they don't feel they need to tell everyone. I'm not referring to talents which should be used to bless, encourage, or help others (I think our talents in that sense are usually given to us to bless others). I'm struggling to explain this. I guess I mean more of a possession, or a cool habit- and the person keeps it to themself, and perhaps a chosen few, until the time to reveal it (if that time ever comes). I really love it. I admire girls especially who can do this, I think for two reasons. One, we tend to be the ones who feel we need to display all our "greatness" or "uniqueness"- especially when we're young. Second, I think women espcially were created in such a way, as to be "hidden"- they should be sought out. I guess it is sort of true, women are mysteries- or should be, but too often aren't today. And mysterious enough that perhaps people don't recognize the mystery until they stop and take some time to look again, or a few more times.

This is becoming more than I intended it to be. It all sprung because I just thought of something a friend told me recently- which completely stunned me- not just because it was very cool what she actually said, but that I had never known it, and know that few others do too. When a girl, or I guess woman (I am still not used to using this term, obviously), has something that makes her special in one way or another, and treasures it enough to keep it hidden- I cannot help but respect her and mark her maturity.

Too often, I tell myself not to tell people something neat about myself or my life, but then I run around and toss it from person to person- so excited, and probably arogant and insecure. I definitely want to grow up more in this, and become more of the mature woman, who 'hides these things in her heart.' It's such a challenge sometimes though, finding how to do this, while also remaining vulnerable and open. I guess it really comes down to WHO you tell, and why. Believe it or not, I tend to keep too much to myself- not bad things (well, sometimes), just most deep things....so I've been learning to share those things in confidence.

I am learning more and more the value of being known by a few, rather than just knowing many. I'll take a close, faithful few over a bunch of 'fun buddies' any day, and I'll trust them with my secrets.