I quit my job.
Most of you probably know that/have figured it out by now.
Here's what I don't know -
Have I quit the industry?
Have I quit 'my career'?
What is next?
People are asking what the plan is - what's next? And I want to jump in and say "Build my own business. Offer communications and marketing support for small businesses I believe in." But, that's not what today is about. Today is a crazy gift where I get to let go of all pressure, direction, preconceived ideas, and experience - and reconsider... who am I? What am I good at? And more importantly - What do I believe matters? What makes me happy? What thing ADDS to me when I give it?
So, while a definite piece to me thinks - this business is "next" - and truth be told, it has a name and a url and an unpublished website... I'm letting it float out there, because it may not be what's next.
I don't know what is next.
I know I've always loved to write. I'm going to figure out if I still love it.
I know I am a romantic - and I know I need to find a way to FEEL the romance in life and business all over again. I know I care more about doing than saying (a true problem for a "writer" - and something I'll have to tease out). I know I cry when I listen to the symphony. I love the taste and ceremony of a good glass of wine. I love the heart of cooking a meal for people I love - but hate the pressure of preparing something people can rate/compare/time. My dinners will be hours late. Plan on it. They will almost always be something new. They might actually not taste good. I love the stars. I love fires. I loves stories. I love feeling deep and close to another human being. I love the magical moment when you realize you have found a new place in this world where you are safe.
I know these things, but beyond that, I really don't know much. And right now, I get to step back and try to discover new things I know.
I am one lucky woman. I happen to have a man beside me who is better at letting people "not know" than anyone else I've ever met.