Sorry, fenelon just made me break again... like snotty, little kid crying.

I don't think I've ever read a 'devotional' that just so bluntly nailed my heart over, and over. I went to grab my journal, and decided to grab The Seeking Heart. I opened it to a random page actually and it was titled "Wandering Thoughts." Ouch. Thats all I can say. In a lot of frustration and a bit of heart ache, I opened it up and started to read...

....Accept, despite your natural reservations, all that God brings to you to exercise your faith. Don't worry about whether you will have the strength to do the right thing. Grace comes only in the moment that you need it. Just be willing to receive your trials with a cheerful heart.

When you see your thoughts wandering, call yourself back to the present moment, but do not struggle with your thoughts. Just stay in the present and you will soon notice your Lord by your side again. The more you turn back to Him just as soon as you sense yourself wandering, the sooner you will have the blessing of knowing the indwelling presence of Christ in a more constant and familiar way.

When you are completely given to God, all that you do is profitable, even if you don't do much. Offer your future up to God, and don't try to figure out what will happen to you. It shows your faithlessness when you want to know the future that God has chosen to conceal from all of us.

Leave the future to God. The best preparation is to die to self-will and give yourself wholly to God. Your spirit will grow as you become less weighed down by your self-nature. You get used to a life full of strife and endless labor and think this is normal. You will be surprised to see how simple and straightforward your life in God is.

It is enough to look to God with confidence, without trying to explain the past or reason out the future.... You will make a lot of progress if you just keep turning back to God. This is much better than getting all upset about your faults and failures.

As for the depression that grows out of a melancholy personality, there are natural things that will help you- a good diet and exercise. [LOL!! How very true... love this man's reality!] ...

If anything is capable of enlarging the spirit and freeing you, it is entire surrender to God. Nothing will keep your mind calm, content, and joyful as living like a child in the arms of God.

Christ wants you to follow the will of God and to live it out in the present moment...

... Peacefully do what stands before you. Desire or refuse nothing. Whether people seek you out or reject you, whether they applaud or oppose you, what does it matter? It is God, not the gifts of God and not yourself, that you seek.

Jesus says, "Lean on me for I am meek and lowly of heart, and you will find rest." Stay gentle and humble and you will know the peace and rest of God.


That is a man I could truly fall in love with, the one who is a King, yet says, 'Lean on me for I am meek and lowly of heart, and you will find rest.'